they.it.them at night

as i see..

they.

them.

talking smiling laughing

everything is about me.

actually..

its not about me.

im an attention seeker..

so?

i dont care.

as i grow,

i need to try everything.

every single thing.

every single time

every single dose.

g..

its enough than a KG..

no one ever noticed.

never,,

ever

as i exhaled.

i can feel the pleasure.

the smile of him

smiling without his real teeth

because its enuff for him.

he wants sumthin from me?

but me?

keep on exhaling.

i love the pain.

because i never know what do they care and concerned about me.

but still.

i dont care about them.

anxiety.

curiousity.

makes me believe,

i am no longer like them.

i am the bad me..

but a night!

changed me.

He helped me out.

with His help to show me.

to His arm.

to His family.

i feel secured,

a night. changed me a lot,

REALLY.

amin.

hope it will last till my last breath.